07/31/2015 || The Helpless Complex

Theme:

The Helpless Complex

Quote:

I'm a goner

Somebody catch my breath
I'm a goner
Somebody catch my breath
I want to be known

by you
I want to be known

by you

~Twenty One Pilots - Goner (original version) 

Month Arc:

Fighting The Breakdown

I've given up; I'm sick of feeling, is there nothing you can say?

'Cause inside I realize that I'm the one confused

No! You'll never get it inside; you push it back down, you push it back down!

So don't apologize, I'm losing what I don't deserve

I don't know what's worth fighting for, or why I have to scream

Don't stay; forget our memories, forget our possibilities

I need a little room to breathe 'cause I'm one step closer to the edge and I'm about to break

Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies across this new divide

So keep in happiness, and torture me while I tell you, "Let's go in style"

We laughed at the sun, we laughed at the guns, we laughed at it all

Caught in this nightmare, dreams turn to thin air

Fear might be the death of me, fear leads to anxiety

'Cause somebody stole my car radio, and now I just sit in silence.

Can you save; can you save my heavydirtysoul?

Heard you say, "not today"; tore the curtains down, windows open now, make a sound

I'm a goner, somebody catch my breath

It's your battle to be fought; no, you don't know what you've got

until it's gone...

Don't let me be gone...

07/30/2015 || Failure to Be

Theme:

Failure to Be

Quote:

I'm out of my mind, I'm not seeing things right
I waste all this time trying to run from you
But I'm out of my mind

Heard you say, "Not today"
Tore the curtains down, windows open now, make a sound
Heard your voice, "There's no choice"
Tore the curtains down, windows open now, make a noise

You are out of my mind, you aren't seeing my side
You waste all this time trying to get to me
But you are out of my mind 

~Twenty One Pilots - Not Today [Blurryface]

07/29/2015 || Stuck in the Routine

Theme:

Stuck in the Routine

07/28/2015 || Fear of Oneself

Theme:

Fear of Oneself

Quote:

Gangsters don't cry
Therefore, therefore I'm
Mr. Misty-eyed, therefore I'm

Can you save, can you save my
Can you save my heavydirtysoul?
Can you save, can you save my
Can you save my heavydirtysoul?
For me, for me
Can you save my heavydirtysoul?
For me, for me
Can you save my heavydirtysoul?

~Twenty One Pilots - Heavydirtysoul [Blurryface]

07/27/2015 || Vulnerability

Theme:

Vulnerability

Quote:

I ponder of something great
My lungs will fill and then deflate
They fill with fire
Exhale desire
I know it's dire
My time today

I have these thoughts
So often I ought
To replace that slot
With what I once bought
'Cause somebody stole
My car radio
And now I just sit in silence

~Twenty One Pilots - Car Radio [Vessel]

07/26/2015 || Soul's Pain

Theme:

Soul's Pain

 

07/25/2015 || Static In My Head

Theme:

Static In My Head

Quote:

Scared of my own image, scared of my own immaturity,
Scared of my own ceiling, scared I'll die of uncertainty,
Fear might be the death of me, fear leads to anxiety,
Don't know what's inside of me.

Don't forget about me,
Don't forget about me,
Even when I doubt you,
I'm no good without you, no, no 

~Twenty One Pilots - Doubt [Blurryface]

07/24/2015 || Crisis in the Mind

Theme:

Crisis in the Mind

Quote:

I'm just a stranger

Who made a wager

For my life

(I'm afraid that, so afraid that)
I might not escape this time
Caught in this nightmare

Dreams turn to thin air
This is the heart against the mind 

~I Prevail - Heart Vs. Mind [Heart Vs. Mind]

07/23/2015 || Casual

Theme:

Casual

07/22/2015 || Insensitivity

Theme:

Insensitivity

07/21/2015 || Lost In Dust

Theme:

Lost in Dust

07/20/2015 || The Falling Retreat

Theme:

The Falling Retreat

Quote:

Today
We stood on the wall
We laughed at the sun
We laughed at the guns
We laughed at it all
And when they
They told us to go
We paid them no mind
Like every other time
But little did we know

~Linkin Park - A Line In The Sand [The Hunting Party]
  

07/19/2015 || Wavering Pursuits

Theme:

Wavering Pursuits 

07/18/2015 || Escaping Limbo

Theme:

Escaping Limbo

Quote:

So keep in happiness
And torture me while I tell you,
"Let's go in style!"
A million hooks around
A million ways to die
Let's go outside
It'll be alright

Last night, you said you ended up in Palm Springs dancing on tables  

~Pierce The Veil - I'm Low On Gas And You Need A Jacket [Collide With The Sky]

07/17/2015 || Depressed Joy

Theme:

Depressed Joy

07/16/2015 || War of Extremities

Theme:

War of Extremities

Quote:

So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross
The distance in your eyes
Give me reason
To fill this hole
Connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide

~Linkin Park - New Divide

07/15/2015 || The Verge of Breakdown

Theme:

The Verge of Breakdown

Quote:

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
I'm about to break

~Linkin Park - One Step Closer [Hybrid Theory]

07/14/2015 || Subsider Desire

Theme:

Subsider Desire

Quote:

Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay

~Linkin Park - Don't Stay [Meteora]

07/13/2015 || Fear of Helplessness

Theme:

Fear of Helplessness

07/12/2015 || Curse Of The Addiction

Theme:

Curse of the Addiction

Quote:

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit

Tonight

~Linkin Park - Breaking The Habit [Meteora]

07/11/2015 || Falling At The Seams

Theme:

Falling At The Seams

 

07/10/2015 || Slice of Life

Theme:

Slice of Life

07/09/2015 || Semi-Collapse

Theme:

Semi-Collapse

Quote:

I'm swimming in the smoke
Of bridges I have burned
So don't apologize
I'm losing what I don't deserve
What I don't deserve

~Linkin Park - Burning In The Skies [A Thousand Suns]

07/08/2015 || Empty Resuscitation

Theme:

Empty Resuscitation

07/07/2015 || Potential Stricken Down

Theme:

Potential Stricken Down

Quote:

No!

You've gotta get it inside
You push it back down

You push it back down
No!

You'll never get it inside
Push it back down

You push it back down
No!

You've gotta get it inside
You push it back down

You push it back down
No!

You'll never get it inside
Push it back down

Black out

Blood in your eye

~Linkin Park - Blackout [A Thousand Suns]

07/06/2015 || Procrastination | Frustration

Themes:

Procrastination

Frustration

Quote:

I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

~Linkin Park - Breaking The Habit [Meteora]

07/05/2015 || Laid Back

Theme:

Laid Back

07/04/2015 || Uneventful Routine

Theme:

Uneventful Routine

07/03/2015 || Clumsiness | Guilt

Themes:

Clumsiness

Guilt 

07/02/2015 || Peace With Strain

Theme:

Peace With Strain

07/01/2015 || Pathetic

Theme:

Pathetic

Quote:

I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the f-ck is wrong
With me

~Linkin Park - Given Up [Minutes To Midnight]

06/30/2015 || Half-Fallen

Theme:

Half-Fallen

Quote:

And you held it all
But you were careless to let it fall
You held it all
And I was by your side
Powerless!

~Linkin Park - POWERLESS [LIVING THINGS]

Month Arc:

Endurance of the Broken

No, this is not the end...

And no one's told me otherwise...

I've grown so tired of stray thoughts that leave me blind...

All I want to do is learn how to dream, how to dream again...

Roll through the grass, run with the wind...

I've got a little confession, I don't know what I'm doing...

Sorry it's a cramped space, but it's my place...

It's been cold for years, won't you let it dry?

I bleed it out digging deeper just to throw it away...

It's like a whirlwind inside of my head...

I run, till it puts me underground...

I'm my own casualty!

Why I never walked away, why I played myself this way...

Hardly anything there for you to see...

I can't hold on (to anything watching everything spin)...

And I was by your side,

powerless!

 

06/29/2015 || Laze

Theme:

Laze

06/28/2015 || Victim Of Myself

Theme:

Victim of Myself

Quote:

I can’t hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It’s all too much to take in
I can’t hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

~Linkin Park - By Myself [Hybrid Theory]

06/27/2015 || One Of Many, One For Many

Theme:

One of Many, One For Many

Quote:

'Cause I'm only a crack in this castle of glass
Hardly anything else I need to be

'Cause I'm only a crack in this castle of glass
Hardly anything there for you to see
For you to see
For you to see

~Linkin Park - CASTLE OF GLASS [LIVING THINGS]

06/26/2015 || To Breathe

Theme:

To Breathe

06/25/2015 || Faintness

Theme:

Faintness

Quote:

Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away 

~Linkin Park - Pushing Me Away [Hybrid Theory]

06/24/2015 || Good Will of the Miserable

Theme:

Good Will Of The Miserable

Personal Quote:

I just want you to be happy. That's all.

06/23/2015 || Buried In The Mistakes

Theme:

Buried In The Mistakes

Quote:

No control!
No surprise!
Tossed the keys to the kingdom down that hole in my eye!
I'm my own
casualty!
I f-ck up everything I see 
Fighting in futility!

~Linkin Park - Keys To The Kingdom [The Hunting Party]

06/22/2015 || Lost

Theme:

Lost

Quote:

I run
Till the silence splits me open
I run
Till it puts me underground
Till I have no breath
And no roads left but one

~Linkin Park - No Roads Left [Minutes to Midnight (Deluxe Version)]

06/21/2015 || Wasted Potential

Theme:

Wasted Potential

06/20/2015 || Insanity

Theme:

Insanity

Quote:

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back 
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within 
It's like the face inside is right
Beneath my skin!

~Linkin Park - Papercut [Hybrid Theory]

06/19/2015 || Distraction

Theme:

Distraction

06/18/2015 || Brain Failure

Theme:

Brain Failure

06/17/2015 || Overwhelming Shame

Theme:

Overwhelming Shame

06/16/2015 || Scathed and Scathing

Theme:

Scathed and Scathing

Quote:

I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away
I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away
I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away
Just to throw it away
Just to throw it away
I bleed it out

~Linkin Park - Bleed It Out [Minutes To Midnight]

06/15/2015 || Lack of Productivity

Theme:

Lack of Productivity

06/14/2015 || Confidence Complex

Theme:

Confidence Complex 

06/13/2015 || Guilt and Tension

Theme:

Guilt and Tension

Quote:

All this bad blood here
Won’t you let it dry?
It’s been cold for years
Won’t you let it lie?

And I don’t wanna hear about the bad blood anymore
I don’t wanna hear you talk about it anymore
I don’t wanna hear about the bad blood anymore
I don’t wanna hear you talk about it anymore

~Bastille - Bad Blood [All This Bad Blood - Disc 1]

06/12/2015 || Recreation and Distraction | Improvisation | Inactivity

Themes:

Recreation and Distraction

Improvisation

Inactivity

Quotes:

Roll through the grass
Run with the wind
Wake up and greet yourself with a grin
Dry up the rain
Count up the days
Wish all your thoughts and troubles away
Bathe in the light
'Cause summer's begun
That's what it feels like under the sun
(Under the sun)
Whoa...
(Under the sun)
That's what it feels like under the sun

~Garrison Ulrich - Under The Sun (acoustic) [54 Degrees]

I've got a little confession
I don't know what I'm doing
But if you want, you can play along
Maybe I'll wake
To find that I went and blew it
But 'til I do, I'll keep going strong

I make it up as I go, oh oh oh
I make it up as I go, oh oh oh
Still haven't gotten it wrong

~Sam Tsui - Make It Up [Make It Up]

The TV's on, I really hate this show
I can't reach my remote control
Welcome to my new place, to my new place
Sorry it's a cramped space, but it's my place
I'm really inactive, I'm so inactive
I'm really inactive, highly inactive

~Alfred "Weird Al" Yankovic - Inactive [Mandatory Fun]

06/11/2015 || Overestimated Milestone

Theme:

Overestimated Milestone

Quote:

If I know what love feels like
Then don't tell me I'm wrong
I may have been lost back then
But I guess I was here all along
The words I said in haste don't matter in the end
All I want to do is learn how to dream

How to dream again

~Aviators - Dream Again [Ghosts In The Code (Deluxe Version)]

06/10/2015 || Downfall to Recovery

Theme:

Downfall to Recovery 

06/09/2015 || Path Of Restoration

Theme:

Path of Restoration

Quote:

I'm feeling like a broken record here
Playing the chorus over until I disappear
I've grown so tired of stray thoughts that leave me blind
Oh, the static in, the static in my mind
It's just a conversation with myself
This time I'll put the memoirs on the shelf
I'm building better worlds, I'll make a difference this time
Clear the static in, the static in my mind 

~Aviators - Static [Building Better Worlds]

06/08/2015 || Sense of Relief

Theme:

Sense of Relief

Quote:

Every step I take outside
Is a sign that I feel alive
And even if I change my mind
I'm not gonna roll those dice

And no one's told me otherwi-i-ise
I'll move like a butterfly-y-y
I'm not gonna cover my eye-eye-eyes
Oh, no one's told me otherwise
No one's told me otherwise
(otherwise, otherwise, otherwise...) 

~Garrison Ulrich - Otherwise (ft. Little Everfree)

06/07/2015 || Stress And Suicidal Thoughts

Theme:

Stress, Exhaustion, and Suicidal Thoughts

06/06/2015 || Sense of Worthlessness

Theme:

Sense of Worthlessness

06/05/2015 || Dwelling on Mistakes

Theme:

Dwelling on Mistakes

 

06/04/2015 || Overworked Heart

Theme:

Overworked Heart

06/03/2015 || My Own Stupidity

Theme:

My Own Stupidity

06/02/2015 || Trapped In Thought

Theme:

Trapped In Thought

06/01/2015 || In Preparation for Another End

Theme:

In Preparation for Another End

Quote:

No, this is not the end
It's the beginning of our story
Tales of wonder and of glory
Where we would save the world again
Do you remember when
We fought the monsters all away
Now here we are today
And I won't let our story end  

~Aviators - This Is Not The End [Building Better Worlds]

05/31/2015 || A Growing Stand

Theme:

A Growing Stand

Quote:

'Cause I'm bleeding out
So if the last thing that I do
Is to bring you down
I'll bleed out for you
So I bare my skin
And I count my sins
And I close my eyes
And I take it in
And I'm bleeding out
I'm bleeding out for you 

for you

~Imagine Dragons - Bleeding Out [Night Visions]

Month Arc:

Fighting Wrath

I cry sometimes when I'm lying in bed just to get it all out what's in my head...

Why waste a second when we're all running out of time...

More than a drop in the sea, because I hope you'll believe the pieces of me...

I'll accept and I'll deal with the work and the strife 'cuz I guess that's just my slice of life...

It's hopeless; I'm a part of you, don't fret when you see the fire in your eyes...

I have written you down, now you will live forever...

One face regret, the other pain, two eyes in my past stare with shame...

Hatred, bloodlust, they're all irrelevant to the moment when my jaws close down on you...

Make 'em laugh, make 'em laugh, don't ya know everyone wants to laugh...

When you're without me, it'll be easy to share, and if you need me, you can pretend I'm there...

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust, honor to glory, and iron to rust...

I'm here to take back control of my mind, because I'm running out of time...

I'm still looking for the truth, still hoping to find you...

We are all in this fight, though the night may be dark, a new day brings new light...

So I bare my skin and I count my sins and I close my eyes and I take it in...

But this is the moment, it's time you know it, I'm gonna make you my enemy...

 

05/30/2015 || Deserting Oneself

Theme:

Deserting Oneself

05/29/2015 || Numbness

Theme:

Numbness

05/28/2015 || Fury

Theme:

Fury

  

05/27/2015 || Commentary

Theme:

Commentary

Quote:

The tools of conquest do not necessarily come with bombs and explosions and fallout. There are weapons that are simply thoughts, attitudes, prejudices to be found only in the minds of men. For the record, prejudices can kill, and suspicion can destroy, and a thoughtless frightened search for a scapegoat has a fallout all of its own for the children, and the children yet unborn. And the pity of it is that these things cannot be confined to the Twilight Zone.

~Rod Serling [The Twilight Zone - The Monsters Are Due On Maple Street] (1960)

05/26/2015 || Headache

Theme:

Headache

05/25/2015 || Pain of Wandering Solitude

Theme:

Pain of Wandering Solitude

05/24/2015 || Moral Ambiguity

Theme:

Moral Ambiguity

Quote:

Clara, be my pal and tell me; am I a good man?

~Peter Capaldi as The Doctor [Doctor Who - Series 8 - Into The Dalek]

05/23/2015 || Endurance through Devotion

Theme:

Endurance Through Devotion

Quote:

Look me right in the eyes, I promise everything will be alright
We are all in this fight, though the night may be dark a new day brings new light
Remember all the times, all the times you felt so alive
When all the pain subsides, lets go back there, take me back there

Hold on, cuz' you don't know what is going to happen
Stay strong, your life's worth more than you know.

~I Prevail - Crossroads [Heart vs. Mind]

05/22/2015 || Growth | Confusion and Tears

Themes:

Growth

Confusion and Tears

Quote:

But now I'm on my way 
I feel the ice in my heart melt away 
I'm here to take back control of my mind 
Because I'm running out of time 
Snowblind

~Aviators - Snowblind [Building Better Worlds] 

I'm still looking for the truth
Still hoping to find you
Somehow I've got to find what's right
Scared I will run away
I'm losing hope today
I can't tell the shadows from the light

~Aviators ft. Glaze - Shadows

 

05/21/2015 || Observer's Burden

Theme:

Observer's Burden

Quote:

Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
Honor to glory
And iron to rust
Hate to bloodshed
From rise to fall
If I never have to die
Am I alive at all?

~Aviators - Ashes [Mirrors]

05/20/2015 || Shame

Theme:

Shame

05/19/2015 || Self-Doubt

Theme:

Self-Doubt

Quote:

When you're without me
It'll be easy to share
And if you need me
You can pretend I'm there
You'll never see me
We'll never meet again
'Cause even without me
You have your other friends

~Garrison Ulrich ft. Joaftheloaf & Relative1Pitch - Without Me [The Pink Side Of The Moon]

05/18/2015 || Goofiness

Theme:

Goofiness

Quote:

Make 'em laugh
Make 'em laugh
Don't you know everyone wants to laugh?
(Ha ha!)
My dad said "Be an actor, my son
But be a comical one
They'll be standing in lines
For those old honky tonk monkeyshines"

Now you could study Shakespeare and be quite elite
And you can charm the critics and have nothin' to eat
Just slip on a banana peel
The world's at your feet
Make 'em laugh
Make 'em laugh
Make 'em laugh!

~Donald O' Connor - Make 'Em Laugh - Singing In The Rain

05/17/2015 || Insanity | Wrath

Themes:

Insanity

Wrath

Quote:

I'm not the crazed killer
You think I am
I'm just here ready to see vengeance through
Hatred, bloodlust
They're all irrelevant to
The moment when my jaws close down on you

~Aviators - Jaws [Fever]

05/16/2015 || Redefinition

Theme:

Redefinition

Quote:

Don't look, there's faces looking back
An enemy I can't attack
I'm held a hostage by these eyes
Familiar faces I deny
One face regret, the other pain
Two eyes in my past stare with shame
In my reflection I see fear
So I'm smashing through these mirrors
I won't let my past hold me on the ground
So let's break this maze of mirrors down, down, down

~Aviators ft. Prince Whateverer - Mirrors [Mirrors]

05/15/2015 || Fluctutation

Theme:

Fluctuation

  

05/14/2015 || To Sober Me

Theme:

To Sober Me

05/13/2015 || Representative

Theme:

Representative

Quote:

I have written you down
Now you will live forever
And all the world will read you
And you live forever
In eyes not yet created
On tongues that are not born
I have written you down
Now you will live forever

~Bastille - Poet [All This Bad Blood]

05/12/2015 || Jekyll and Hyde

Theme:

Jekyll and Hyde

Personal Quote:

It's hopeless; I'm a part of you
Don't fret when you see the fire in your eyes
You can't run, you can't hide, you can't fight me
Just turn and embrace me because I'm your dark side

~Your Dark Side

05/11/2015 || Head Up High

Theme:

Head Up High

Quote:

I keep moving forward
When they try to rob me blind
Why waste a second when we're
All running out of time
I know, yes I know
I'm not a great man
But what you call "great" isn't part of my plan
I'll accept, and I'll deal with
The work and the strife
'cuz I guess that's
Just my slice of life

~Aviators - Slice Of Life [Ghosts In The Code]

05/10/2015 || Frustration

Theme:

Frustration

05/09/2015 || Fury

Theme:

Fury

Quote:

Become vengeance, David. Become wrath.

~Kevin Spacey as John Doe, Se7en (1995)

05/08/2015 || Contemplation | Energy

Theme:

Contemplation

Energy

05/07/2015 || Attention

Theme:

Attention

Quote:

I, I could dare to stand tall
If it means I could fall
To conquer it all
I believe I'm something
More than a drop in the sea
Because I hope you'll believe
The pieces of me
Are broken but there are beautiful things they could be

~Aviators - Pieces Of Me [Building Better Worlds]

05/06/2015 || Confidence

Theme:

Confidence

Quote:

I keep moving forward
When they try to rob me blind
Why waste a second when we're
All running out of time
I know, yes I know
I'm not a great man
But what you call "great" isn't part of my plan
I'll accept, and I'll deal with
The work and the strife
'cuz I guess that's
Just my slice of life

~Aviators - Slice Of Life [Ghosts In The Code]