The Themes of My Life: July 2015

July 31, 2015

07/31/2015 || The Helpless Complex

Theme:

The Helpless Complex

Quote:

I'm a goner

Somebody catch my breath
I'm a goner
Somebody catch my breath
I want to be known

by you
I want to be known

by you

~Twenty One Pilots - Goner (original version)

Month Arc:

Fighting The Breakdown

I've given up; I'm sick of feeling, is there nothing you can say?

'Cause inside I realize that I'm the one confused

No! You'll never get it inside; you push it back down, you push it back down!

So don't apologize, I'm losing what I don't deserve

I don't know what's worth fighting for, or why I have to scream

Don't stay; forget our memories, forget our possibilities

I need a little room to breathe 'cause I'm one step closer to the edge and I'm about to break

Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies across this new divide

So keep in happiness, and torture me while I tell you, "Let's go in style"

We laughed at the sun, we laughed at the guns, we laughed at it all

Caught in this nightmare, dreams turn to thin air

Fear might be the death of me, fear leads to anxiety

'Cause somebody stole my car radio, and now I just sit in silence.

Can you save; can you save my heavydirtysoul?

Heard you say, "not today"; tore the curtains down, windows open now, make a sound

I'm a goner, somebody catch my breath

It's your battle to be fought; no, you don't know what you've got

until it's gone...

Don't let me be gone...

July 30, 2015

07/30/2015 || Failure to Be

Theme:

Failure to Be

Quote:

I'm out of my mind, I'm not seeing things right
I waste all this time trying to run from you
But I'm out of my mind

Heard you say, "Not today"
Tore the curtains down, windows open now, make a sound
Heard your voice, "There's no choice"
Tore the curtains down, windows open now, make a noise

You are out of my mind, you aren't seeing my side
You waste all this time trying to get to me
But you are out of my mind

~Twenty One Pilots - Not Today [Blurryface]

July 29, 2015

07/29/2015 || Stuck in the Routine

Theme:

Stuck in the Routine

July 28, 2015

07/28/2015 || Fear of Oneself

Theme:

Fear of Oneself

Quote:

Gangsters don't cry
Therefore, therefore I'm
Mr. Misty-eyed, therefore I'm

Can you save, can you save my
Can you save my heavydirtysoul?
Can you save, can you save my
Can you save my heavydirtysoul?
For me, for me
Can you save my heavydirtysoul?
For me, for me
Can you save my heavydirtysoul?

~Twenty One Pilots - Heavydirtysoul [Blurryface]

July 27, 2015

07/27/2015 || Vulnerability

Theme:

Vulnerability

Quote:

I ponder of something great
My lungs will fill and then deflate
They fill with fire
Exhale desire
I know it's dire
My time today

I have these thoughts
So often I ought
To replace that slot
With what I once bought
'Cause somebody stole
My car radio
And now I just sit in silence

~Twenty One Pilots - Car Radio [Vessel]

July 26, 2015

07/26/2015 || Soul's Pain

Theme:

Soul's Pain

July 25, 2015

07/25/2015 || Static In My Head

Theme:

Static In My Head

Quote:

Scared of my own image, scared of my own immaturity,
Scared of my own ceiling, scared I'll die of uncertainty,
Fear might be the death of me, fear leads to anxiety,
Don't know what's inside of me.

Don't forget about me,
Don't forget about me,
Even when I doubt you,
I'm no good without you, no, no

~Twenty One Pilots - Doubt [Blurryface]

July 24, 2015

07/24/2015 || Crisis in the Mind

Theme:

Crisis in the Mind

Quote:

I'm just a stranger

Who made a wager

For my life

(I'm afraid that, so afraid that)
I might not escape this time
Caught in this nightmare

Dreams turn to thin air
This is the heart against the mind

~I Prevail - Heart Vs. Mind [Heart Vs. Mind]

July 23, 2015

07/23/2015 || Casual

Theme:

Casual

July 22, 2015

07/22/2015 || Insensitivity

Theme:

Insensitivity

July 21, 2015

07/21/2015 || Lost In Dust

Theme:

Lost in Dust

July 20, 2015

07/20/2015 || The Falling Retreat

Theme:

The Falling Retreat

Quote:

Today
We stood on the wall
We laughed at the sun
We laughed at the guns
We laughed at it all
And when they
They told us to go
We paid them no mind
Like every other time
But little did we know

~Linkin Park - A Line In The Sand [The Hunting Party]

July 19, 2015

07/19/2015 || Wavering Pursuits

Theme:

Wavering Pursuits

July 18, 2015

07/18/2015 || Escaping Limbo

Theme:

Escaping Limbo

Quote:

So keep in happiness
And torture me while I tell you,
"Let's go in style!"
A million hooks around
A million ways to die
Let's go outside
It'll be alright

Last night, you said you ended up in Palm Springs dancing on tables

~Pierce The Veil - I'm Low On Gas And You Need A Jacket [Collide With The Sky]

July 17, 2015

07/17/2015 || Depressed Joy

Theme:

Depressed Joy

July 16, 2015

07/16/2015 || War of Extremities

Theme:

War of Extremities

Quote:

So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross
The distance in your eyes
Give me reason
To fill this hole
Connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide

~Linkin Park - New Divide

July 15, 2015

07/15/2015 || The Verge of Breakdown

Theme:

The Verge of Breakdown

Quote:

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
I'm about to break

~Linkin Park - One Step Closer [Hybrid Theory]

July 14, 2015

07/14/2015 || Subsider Desire

Theme:

Subsider Desire

Quote:

Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay

~Linkin Park - Don't Stay [Meteora]

July 13, 2015

07/13/2015 || Fear of Helplessness

Theme:

Fear of Helplessness

July 12, 2015

07/12/2015 || Curse Of The Addiction

Theme:

Curse of the Addiction

Quote:

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit

Tonight

~Linkin Park - Breaking The Habit [Meteora]

July 11, 2015

07/11/2015 || Falling At The Seams

Theme:

Falling At The Seams

July 10, 2015

07/10/2015 || Slice of Life

Theme:

Slice of Life

July 09, 2015

07/09/2015 || Semi-Collapse

Theme:

Semi-Collapse

Quote:

I'm swimming in the smoke
Of bridges I have burned
So don't apologize
I'm losing what I don't deserve
What I don't deserve

~Linkin Park - Burning In The Skies [A Thousand Suns]

July 08, 2015

07/08/2015 || Empty Resuscitation

Theme:

Empty Resuscitation

July 07, 2015

07/07/2015 || Potential Stricken Down

Theme:

Potential Stricken Down

Quote:

No!

You've gotta get it inside
You push it back down

You push it back down
No!

You'll never get it inside
Push it back down

You push it back down
No!

You've gotta get it inside
You push it back down

You push it back down
No!

You'll never get it inside
Push it back down

Black out

Blood in your eye

~Linkin Park - Blackout [A Thousand Suns]

July 06, 2015

07/06/2015 || Procrastination | Frustration

Themes:

Procrastination

Frustration

Quote:

I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight