I'm Ending The Themes Blog.

You know what... I think I'm finally done posting to this blog.

My reasons for this are that I feel I'm spending too much time on it and I'm starting to lose my interest in it. I'll probably continue keeping track of my themes, but probably not in a blog format.

To whoever happens to be here, if anyone else at all, thanks. But this is going to be my final post for The Themes Of My Life. And if you're just finding this, then have fun looking back on the past three years for me. I've gone through quite the evolution.

The past three years have been quite the journey for me. I can't wait to see what the rest of my life holds.

Stay safe and have a great life.

12/31/2016 || Self Realisation || The Story Of A New Man

Month Arc:

Self Realisation

 

Yearly Arc:

The Story of a New Man

You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt


I know it's The Last Day On Earth
We'll be together while the planet dies
I know it's The Last Day On Earth
We'll never say goodbye


This machine will, will not communicate
These thoughts and the strain I am under
Be a world child, form a circle
Before we all go under
And Fade Out again
And Fade Out again


Ever since this began
I was Blessed With A Curse.
And for better or for worse
I was born into a hearse.
I know I said
My heart beats for you.
I was lying girl.
I've been lying to you.

Everything I touch turns to stone, turns to stone.
So wrap your arms around me, and leave me on my own.
Everything I touch turns to stone, turns to stone.
So wrap your arms around me, and leave me on my own.

Take!
Back!
Every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take!
Back!
Every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take!
Back!
Every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take
Back!
Every word I've said...


At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home, never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are never ever...
Ever...


Little angel go away
Come again some other day
The devil has my ear today
I'll never hear a word you say
He promised I would find a little solace
And some piece of mind
Whatever just as long as I don't feel so
Desperate and ravenous
I'm so Weak and Powerless
Desperate and ravenous
I'm so Weak and Powerless
over you
over you


When the world was turned to gray
The hatred wouldn't go away
Resentment in chains
In the coldest of all hearts
A voice descends, the light departs
Madness Remains 


A trillion memories
Lost in space and time for ever more
I just wanted
I just needed to be loved.


***


No! At the top of our lungs,
There's no, no such thing as too young,
Second chances won't leave you alone

No, we'll repeat it again,
There's no, no such thing as too young,
Second chances won't leave you alone,
'Cause there's faith in love


I'll see you in the future when we're older
And we are full of stories to be told
Cross my heart and hope to die
I'll see you with your Laughter Lines


When life leaves us blind
Love keeps us kind
When life leaves us blind
Love keeps us kind 

It keeps us kind


I know where you stand
Silent in the Trees
And that's where I am
Silent in the Trees.
Why won't you speak
Where I happen to be?
Silent in the trees
Standing cowardly.

I can feel your breath.
I can feel my death.
I want to know you.
I want to see.
I want to say hello.


So was it really worth the torment?
in the end, there’s nothing gained
Tried your hardest, put your heart and soul to banishing the dark
Just to find it all remained
Could you ever be forgiven
By the bridges that you burned?
Feeling something great and powerful inside you breaking free
Tell me, what is it you’ve learned?
Tell me all that you have earned…


Our trust runs out tonight
Everything we said dissolves
And now we say our last goodbye
Nothing to resolve
I never imagined you'd turn into this
But then the end was always close
We could feel it all along
Don't you know where
We could hide the lies
You were a Mouth without a heart
An action without meaning
And you walk afraid
Reaching for the hands that turned closed


Let's start over again
Why can't we start it over again
Just let us start it over again
And we'll be good
This time we'll get it, get it right
It's our last chance to forgive ourselves


And the sky is filled with light
Can you see it?
All the black is really white
If you believe it
And the longing that you feel
You know none of this is real
You will find a better a place
In This Twilight.

 

New Years Resolution:

Be good.

12/30/2016 || Who You Are Now

Theme:

Who You Are Now

Quote:

I am forgiven
I am free
I am a field on fire
I am forgiven
I am free
I am a field on fire
I am forgiven
I am free
I am a field on fire
I am forgiven
I am free
I am a field on fire

I can't tell if I am dreaming anymore
I can't tell if I am dreaming anymore
I can't tell if I am dreaming anymore
I can't tell if I am dreaming anymore

~Nine Inch Nails - Burning Bright (Field on Fire) [Not The Actual Events] 

Aren't we all floating in the ocean?
Aren't we all standing in the rain?
Can't you see the world we built together?
Sharing in the sunshine and the pain.

~Aviators - Floating [A Song That Never Ends]

12/29/2016 || Aggressor | Time

Theme:

Aggressor

Time

Quote:

In the air we tried to be
But you shot your arrow through me
Now one of us must die
But the killer won’t survive

In the air we tried to be
But you shot your arrow through me
Now one of us must die
But the killer won’t survive
And the killer won’t survive

~The Dillinger Escape Plan - One Of Us Is The Killer [One Of Us Is The Killer]

12/28/2016 || The Dilemma

Theme:

The Dilemma

Quote:

How could it all be
We've never been dead
But never awake from this dream
How could it all be
We’ve never been dead
Just mirrors running scared
Slicing wrists while we look for our own mortality
All the lights went out cold
Shadow covers the soul
Essence of the world made ceremonial
Now we all wait for the demise

~The Dillinger Escape Plan - Prancer [One Of Us Is The Killer]

12/27/2016 || Yeah Yeah

Theme:

Yeah Yeah

Quote:

Oh, you're 23 years old now
Stick with what you know
The burger joint just down the road seems like the place to go
Oh, it's comfortable and inviting
and it won't tell you lies
I want that Bacon Cheeseburger with those damn good fries

~Ken Ashcorp - Burgz

12/26/2016 || Heavy-headed

Theme:

Heavy-headed

Quote:

What rounding out breaks the silent barrier
Waiting, wait, wait
Can I pick your modest waste?
I expect no more than (did I stutter? did I stutter? did I stutter?)
A simple regret

You deserved it, and you earned it

~Dillinger Escape Plan - Sugar Coated Sour [Calculating Infinity]

12/25/2016 || Give Me Solace

Theme:

Give Me Solace

Quote:

Yeah, I'll gravitate towards you

Or you'll miss me when I'm gone

Cause things are getting creepy
in this sleepy state of Oregon

And I'm gonna set things straight again

I'm gonna prove them wrong

I'm gonna show the world the supernatural

~Ken Ashcorp - Supernatural

12/24/2016 || What We're Afraid Of

Theme:

What We're Afraid Of

Quote:

This is how we fall apart
This is how the ending starts
And when our heads betray our hearts
We fake what we don't know

Cause all we are is everything we've done
All we are is how quickly we run
And all we are
We are

This is how we fall apart
But this is how beginnings start
Cause when our heads betray our hearts
We fake what we don't know

And if our doubt begins again
The answers find us in the end
So in the meantime we'll pretend
And fake what we don't know

~Linkin Park - What We Don't Know [LP Underground X]

12/23/2016 || Catch Up With Me

Theme:

Catch Up With Me

Quote:

And you were there
And I was every question that never had an answer
I see right through you
We never even noticed that
There always was a reason
That we were never meant to be left alone

~The Dillinger Escape Plan - Milk Lizard [Ire Works]

12/22/2016 || Boredom Hour

Theme:

Boredom Hour

12/21/2016 || I'm Doing Alright

Theme:

I'm Doing Alright

Quote:

You're my guiding light
You're my guiding light
When there's no guiding light left inside
When there's no guiding light in our lives

~Muse - Guiding Light [The Resistance]

12/20/2016 || Bittersweet Ending

Theme:

Bittersweet Ending

Quote:

Our trust runs out tonight
Everything we said dissolves
And now we say our last goodbye
Nothing to resolve
I never imagined you'd turn into this
But then the end was always close
We could feel it all along
Don't you know where
We could hide the lies
You were a mouth without a heart
An action without meaning
And you walk afraid
Reaching for the hands that turned closed

~The Dillinger Escape Plan - Mouth of Ghosts [Ire Works]

12/19/2016 || Well?

Theme:

Well?

12/18/2016 || Become

Theme:

Become

Quote:

What if everything around you
Isn't quite as it seems?
What if all the world you think you know
Is an elaborate dream?
And if you look at your reflection
Is it all you want it to be?
What if you could look right through the cracks?
Would you find yourself
Find yourself afraid to see?

~Nine Inch Nails - Right Where It Belongs [With Teeth]

12/17/2016 || A Groove

Theme:

A Groove

Quote:

It's happening soon
It's happening soon
It's scent has been blowing in my direction
To me it is new
To me it is new
And it's not gonna change for anybody

And it's gonna be
Our last memory
And it's led me on
And on to you

~Muse - Fillip [Showbiz]

12/16/2016 || Cookie Cutter

Theme:

Cookie Cutter

Quote:

Baby you're the highlight of my lowlife
Take a shitty day and make it alright
Yeah alright
Oh in every circumstance
Yeah you make the difference
Baby you're the highlight of my lowlife

~That Poppy - Lowlife [Bubblebath]

12/15/2016 || I Don't Want To Be Here

Theme:

I Don't Want To Be Here

Quote:

I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this

don't you tell me how I feel
don't you tell me how I feel
don't you tell me how I feel
you don't know just how I feel

I want to know everything
I want to be everywhere
I want to fuck everyone in the world
I want to do something that matters

~Nine Inch Nails - I Do Not Want This [The Downward Spiral]

12/14/2016 || Bite Me

Theme:

Bite Me

12/13/2016 ||

Theme:

 

Quote:

Are you afraid to die
Travel to the other side
Are you afraid to die
Like me

I am afraid to die
I am afraid to die

~Jared Dines - Afraid to Die [The Dark]

12/12/2016 || Headache

Theme:

Headache

Quote:

I've been dreaming

of us leaving

everything and everyone we've ever known.
I've been thinking

all these visions

must be a sign, so hold on and don't let go.

~Bring Me The Horizon - Visions [There Is A Hell, Believe Me I've Seen It. There Is A Heaven, Let's Keep It A Secret.]

12/11/2016 || Just Tell Me

Theme:

Just Tell Me

Quote:

Hollow paradise
A place of spirits and of ice
The lights have long burned out
But still the echoes give us light
Trapped inside a hall
With my portraits on the wall
The faces stare right back
As I hear the watcher's weary call

~Aviators - The Watcher [From Oceans To Skies]

12/10/2016 || Not Too Bad

Theme:

Not Too Bad

 

12/09/2016 || Slave to Myself

Theme:

Slave to Myself

Quote:

I think I'm losing my mind, I think I'm losing my mind
They say the poison's in the dosage and they must be right
Left with panic attacks and death riding our backs
It all looks so much worse on the way back down

I'm so fucked up since I hit the ground
I'm so fucked up since I hit the ground
 

Revive me!

~Bring Me The Horizon - The Fox and the Wolf [There Is A Hell, Believe Me I've Seen It. There Is A Heaven, Let's Keep It A Secret.]

12/09/2016 || Until

Theme:

Until

Quote:

Behind the light
(So the story goes)
Gone now from making it right
My end I paved
(So the story goes)
Just soft reflections in the waves

~Tarby - The Reflection [Everfree]

12/07/2016 || Worn Out

Theme:

Worn Out

12/06/2016 || Wipe My Memory

Theme:

Wipe My Memory

12/05/2016 || Drifting Away

Theme:

Drifting Away 

Quote:

This machine will, will not communicate
These thoughts and the strain I am under
Be a world child, form a circle
Before we all go under
And fade out again

And fade out again

~Radiohead - Street Spirit (Fade Out) [The Bends]

12/04/2016 || Slowpoke

Theme:

S l o w p o k e

12/03/2016 || You Need An Awakening

Theme:

You Need An Awakening

12/01/2016 || Can I Make It Out This Time?

Theme:

Can I Make It Out This Time?

Quote:

Free, I want to break free
From knowing you
Somewhere in the dark a voice is screaming
One of us is going to leave here bleeding
Breathe I'm trying to breathe
Inside of this
Trap you set to keep me from the daylight
Fighting for my life tonight, 'cause I'm still alive

~Aviators - Alive [A Song That Never Ends]



Aviators's A Song That Never Ends is now out on Bandcamp. Check it out.
 

11/30/2016 || The Mistake || The Edge of Destruction

Theme:

The Mistake

Quote:

There's no culture left
To love and cherish
It's gone, you know it's gone for good
A trillion memories
Lost in space and time for ever more
I just wanted
I just needed to be loved

~Muse - The Globalist [Drones]

Month Arc:

The Edge of Destruction

I want to be a celebrity martyr

Who's gonna be there to make me whole?
Television dreams of tomorrow, we're not the ones who are meant to follow

Am I just paranoid, or am I just stoned?

Welcome to a new kind of tension

Take me away to paradise

I run, and it puts me underground

It's not 'cause you're not here with me, it's because you never leave!

We're young and in love, heart attacks waiting to happen

So wrap your arms around me and leave me on my own

I don't wanna do this by myself, I don't wanna live like a broken record

It's a drunken punch-up at a wedding, yeah

That little kiss you stole, it held my heart and soul

Idiot, slow down, slow down

Your dark shines, bringing me down, making my heart feel sore

And they make me, make me scream your screams

Little angel go away, come again some other day

Hear me, what words can't convey

A trillion memories lost in space and time forever more

I just wanted, I just needed to be loved.

Amen.

11/29/2016 || Rip Me Apart

Theme:

Rip Me Apart

Quote:

We destroyed something beautiful
We have faith
But our truths are not the same, no
Don't give up
Don't let the magic leave us
Stop the loneliest force becoming king of the universe

Hear me
What words just can't convey
Feel me
Don't you let the sun in your heart decay

~Muse - Big Freeze [The 2nd Law]

11/28/2016 || The First Death of the Clockwise Philosopher

Theme:

The First Death of the Clockwise Philosopher

Quote:

Controlling my feelings for too long
Controlling my feelings for too long
And forcing our darkest souls to unfold
And forcing our darkest souls to unfold
And pushing us into self destruction
And pushing us into self destruction

And they make me
Make me dream your dreams
And they make me
Make me scream your screams

~Muse - Showbiz [Showbiz] 

Little angel go away
Come again some other day
The devil has my ear today
I'll never hear a word you say
He promised I would find a little solace
And some piece of mind
Whatever just as long as I don't feel so

Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless
Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless
over you
over you

~A Perfect Circle - Weak and Powerless [Thirteenth Step] 

11/27/2016 || Fatigue

Theme:

Fatigue

11/26/2016 || Late Shines

Theme:

Late Shines

Quote:

Dark shines
Bringing me down
Making my heart feel sore
Cause it's good
Your dark shines
Bringing me down
Making my heart feel sore
Cause it's good

~Muse - Darkshines [Origin of Symmetry]

11/25/2016 || Dumbed Down

Theme:

Dumbed Down

11/24/2016 || You Won't Wait For Me

Theme:

You Won't Wait For Me

Quote:

Hey man

Slow down

Slow down
Idiot

Slow down

Slow down

~Radiohead - The Tourist [OK Computer]

11/23/2016 || Late Dreamer

Theme:

Late Dreamer

Quote:

Have you ever stopped to watch a bluebird drop

from a tree and take to the air?

Me neither. 

~Bo Burnham - #Deep [what.]

11/22/2016 || Won't Be Too Long Now

Theme:

Won't Be Too Long Now

11/21/2016 || I Hate Myself

Theme:

I Hate Myself

Quote:

That little kiss you stole
It held my heart and soul
And like a ghost in the silence I disappear
Don't try to fight the storm
You'll tumble overboard
Tides will bring me back to you

That little kiss you stole
It held my heart and soul
And like a deer in the headlights I meet my fate
Don't try to fight the storm
You'll tumble overboard
Tides will bring me back to you

~Bring Me The Horizon - Deathbeds [Sempiternal (Deluxe Edition)]

11/20/2016 || Bothers and Games

Theme:

Bothers and Games

11/19/2016 || Frustration

Theme:

Frustration

Quote:

I don't know why you bother
Nothing's ever good enough for you.
(By the way) I was there and it wasn't like that.
You've come here just to start a fight
You had to piss on our parade
You had to shred our big day
You had to ruin it for all concerned
In a drunken punch-up at a wedding

Hypocrite opportunist
Don't infect me with your poison
A bully in a china shop
When I turn 'round you stay frozen to the spot
You had the pointless snide remarks
Of hammerheaded sharks
The pot will call the kettle black
It's a drunken punch-up at a wedding yeah

~Radiohead - A Punchup At A Wedding (No no no no no no no no) [Hail To The Thief]

11/18/2016 || Alone

Theme:

Alone

Quote:

Every second's soaked in sadness
Every weekend is a war
And I'm drowning in the déjà vu
We've seen it all before

I don't wanna do this by myself
I don't wanna live like a broken record
I've heard these lines a thousand times
And I've seen it all before

~Bring Me The Horizon - Seen It All Before [Sempiternal]

11/17/2016 || Druggie

Theme:

Druggie

11/16/2016 || I Can't Live With Myself

Theme:

I Can't Live With Myself

Quote:

Ever since this began, I was blessed with a curse.
And for better or for worse I was born into a hearse.
I know I said my heart beats for you.
I was lying girl. I've been lying to you...

Everything I touch turns to stone, turns to stone.
So wrap your arms around me, and leave me on my own.
Everything I touch turns to stone, turns to stone.
So wrap your arms around me, and leave me on my own.

Take

Back

Every word I've said, ever said to you.

Take

Back

Every word I've said, ever said to you.

Take

Back

Every word I've said, ever said to you.

Take

Back

Every word I've said...

~Bring Me The Horizon - Blessed With A Curse [There Is A Hell, Believe Me I've Seen It. There Is A Heaven, Let's Keep it A Secret.]

11/15/2016 || I Can Barely Hold On

Theme:

I Can Barely Hold On

Quote:

How do you say "goodbye" when you've hardly said hello?
How do you say "goodbye" when you've hardly said hello?

We're young and in love, heart attacks waiting to happen
So come a little closer, tell me it's all in our heads
We're young and in love, heart attacks waiting to happen
So come a little closer, tell me those three little words.

We're young and in love, heart attacks waiting to happen
So come a little closer, tell me it's all in our heads
We're young and in love, heart attacks waiting to happen
So come a little closer, tell me those three little words.

We're young and in love, heart attacks waiting to happen
So come a little closer, tell me it's all in our heads
We're young and in love, heart attacks waiting to happen
So come a little closer, tell me those three little words.

~Bring Me The Horizon ft. Josh Franceschi - Fuck [There Is A Hell, Believe Me I've Seen It. There Is A Heaven, Let's Keep It A Secret.]

11/14/2016 || Early/Late

Theme:

Early/Late

11/13/2016 || Punishing Myself

Theme:

Punishing Myself

Quote:

I've said it once, I've said it twice, I've said it a thousand fucking times
That I'm OK, that I'm fine, that it's all just in my mind
But this has got the best of me, and I can't seem to sleep
It's not 'cause you're not with me, it's 'cause you never leave

~Bring Me The Horizon - It Never Ends [There Is A Hell, Believe Me I've Seen It. There Is A Heaven, Let's Keep It A Secret.]

11/12/2016 || Nothing New

Theme:

Nothing New

11/11/2016 || Sleeping In

Theme:

Sleeping In

11/10/2016 || Fear

Theme:

Fear

Quote:

In my fear and flaws
I let myself down again
All because

I run
And the silence splits me open
I run
And it puts me underground
But there's no regret
And no roads left to run

~Linkin Park - No Roads Left

11/09/2016 || Unextreme

Theme:

Unextreme

Quote:

Bite my lip and close my eyes
Take me away to paradise
I'm so damn bored I'm going blind
And I smell like shit

I got no motivation
Where is my motivation?
No time for the motivation
Smoking my inspiration

~Green Day - Longview [Dookie]

11/08/2016 || This Broken System | Integration

Themes:

This Broken System

Integration

Quote:

Don't want to be an American Idiot.
One nation controlled by the media.
Information age of hysteria.
It's calling out to idiot America.

Welcome to a new kind of tension
All across the alienation
Where everything isn't meant to be okay.
Television dreams of tomorrow
We're not the ones who're meant to follow
For that's enough to argue.

~Green Day - American Idiot [American Idiot]

11/07/2016 || Not Too Far Gone, I Hope

Theme:

Not Too Far Gone, I Hope

11/06/2016 || I Might Not Make It

Theme:

I Might Not Make It

11/05/2016 || Disturbance

Theme:

Disturbance

Quote:

Sometimes I give myself the creeps
Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
It all keeps adding up
I think I'm cracking up
Am I just paranoid?
Am I just stoned?

~Green Day - Basket Case [Dookie]

11/04/2016 || Got It Wrong

Theme:

Got It Wrong

Quote:

Welcome to a new kind of tension.
All across the alienation.
Where everything isn't meant to be okay.
Television dreams of tomorrow.
We're not the ones who're meant to follow.
For that's enough to argue.

~Green Day - American Idiot [American Idiot]

11/04/2016 || Guilt

Theme:

Guilt

11/02/2016 || Get Me Through

Theme:

Get Me Through

Quote:

Cut up into pieces, looking for a reason
Who’s gonna be there to make me whole?
I can’t stop the bleeding, looking for a meaning
Throw me a line and bring me back home
Won’t you say something, say something?
I can’t do this alone
Cut up into pieces, looking for a reason
Throw me a line and bring me back home

~I Prevail - Lifelines [Lifelines]

11/01/2016 || Psychotics?

Theme:

Psychotics?

Quote:

Bang Bang! Give me fame!
Shoot me up to entertain
I am a semi-automatic lonely boy
You're dead! I'm well fed!
Give me death or give me head
Broadcasting from my room and playing with my toys

I want to be a celebrity martyr
The leading man in my own private drama
Hurrah (bang bang!), hurrah (bang bang!)
The hero of the hour
Daddy's little psycho and Mommy's little soldier

~Green Day - Bang Bang [Revolution Radio]

10/31/2016 || The Depression || Suffocation - Save Me

Theme:

The Depression

Quote:

Useless device, it won't suffice
I want a new game to play
When I am gone
It won't be long, before I disturb you in the dark

And paradise comes at a price
That I am not prepared to pay
What were we built for?
Will someone tell me please?

Take off your disguise
I know that underneath
It's me

~Muse - Megalomania [Origin of Symmetry]

Month Arc:

Suffocation - Save Me

You, were my oppressor, and I, I have been programmed to obey,

I know the pieces fit, I know the pieces fit,

I'm not breaking down, I'm breaking out,

Learn to swim, learn to swim, learn to swim, learn to swim,

It's not enough! I need more! Nothing seems to satisfy!

Why can't we start it over again?

When you pissed all over my black kettle,

You don't, you don't, you don't see me at all.

Call an optimist, she's turning blue, such a lovely color for you,

Throw it all away, let's lose ourselves,

They keep calling me, keep on calling me,

Please, please, let's use this chance to turn things around,

You and me, we're in this together now!

None of them can stop us now, we can make it through somehow!
Maybe you can't handle yourself, staring at me with your lips and tongue,

I've been having this dream that we can fly,

So maybe if we never wake up we can see the sky!

I can feel your bad vibrations all around me, all consuming,

And now you're tired of the fighting, fighting yourself,

I will always fight for one more breath, even in a cardiac arrest,

I think we're doomed, I think we're doomed, and now there's no way back!

And I want you now, I want you now,

I'm right back at it again, just like I've always said,

And it scares the hell out of me, and the end is all I can see,

I know that underneath, it's me. 

Just let us start it over again,

And we'll be good,

This time we'll get it,

Get it right,

It's our last chance

to forgive ourselves...