I'm Ending The Themes Blog.

You know what... I think I'm finally done posting to this blog.

My reasons for this are that I feel I'm spending too much time on it and I'm starting to lose my interest in it. I'll probably continue keeping track of my themes, but probably not in a blog format.

To whoever happens to be here, if anyone else at all, thanks. But this is going to be my final post for The Themes Of My Life. And if you're just finding this, then have fun looking back on the past three years for me. I've gone through quite the evolution.

The past three years have been quite the journey for me. I can't wait to see what the rest of my life holds.

Stay safe and have a great life.

12/31/2016 || Self Realisation || The Story Of A New Man

Month Arc:

Self Realisation

 

Yearly Arc:

The Story of a New Man

You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt


I know it's The Last Day On Earth
We'll be together while the planet dies
I know it's The Last Day On Earth
We'll never say goodbye


This machine will, will not communicate
These thoughts and the strain I am under
Be a world child, form a circle
Before we all go under
And Fade Out again
And Fade Out again


Ever since this began
I was Blessed With A Curse.
And for better or for worse
I was born into a hearse.
I know I said
My heart beats for you.
I was lying girl.
I've been lying to you.

Everything I touch turns to stone, turns to stone.
So wrap your arms around me, and leave me on my own.
Everything I touch turns to stone, turns to stone.
So wrap your arms around me, and leave me on my own.

Take!
Back!
Every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take!
Back!
Every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take!
Back!
Every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take
Back!
Every word I've said...


At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home, never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are never ever...
Ever...


Little angel go away
Come again some other day
The devil has my ear today
I'll never hear a word you say
He promised I would find a little solace
And some piece of mind
Whatever just as long as I don't feel so
Desperate and ravenous
I'm so Weak and Powerless
Desperate and ravenous
I'm so Weak and Powerless
over you
over you


When the world was turned to gray
The hatred wouldn't go away
Resentment in chains
In the coldest of all hearts
A voice descends, the light departs
Madness Remains 


A trillion memories
Lost in space and time for ever more
I just wanted
I just needed to be loved.


***


No! At the top of our lungs,
There's no, no such thing as too young,
Second chances won't leave you alone

No, we'll repeat it again,
There's no, no such thing as too young,
Second chances won't leave you alone,
'Cause there's faith in love


I'll see you in the future when we're older
And we are full of stories to be told
Cross my heart and hope to die
I'll see you with your Laughter Lines


When life leaves us blind
Love keeps us kind
When life leaves us blind
Love keeps us kind 

It keeps us kind


I know where you stand
Silent in the Trees
And that's where I am
Silent in the Trees.
Why won't you speak
Where I happen to be?
Silent in the trees
Standing cowardly.

I can feel your breath.
I can feel my death.
I want to know you.
I want to see.
I want to say hello.


So was it really worth the torment?
in the end, there’s nothing gained
Tried your hardest, put your heart and soul to banishing the dark
Just to find it all remained
Could you ever be forgiven
By the bridges that you burned?
Feeling something great and powerful inside you breaking free
Tell me, what is it you’ve learned?
Tell me all that you have earned…


Our trust runs out tonight
Everything we said dissolves
And now we say our last goodbye
Nothing to resolve
I never imagined you'd turn into this
But then the end was always close
We could feel it all along
Don't you know where
We could hide the lies
You were a Mouth without a heart
An action without meaning
And you walk afraid
Reaching for the hands that turned closed


Let's start over again
Why can't we start it over again
Just let us start it over again
And we'll be good
This time we'll get it, get it right
It's our last chance to forgive ourselves


And the sky is filled with light
Can you see it?
All the black is really white
If you believe it
And the longing that you feel
You know none of this is real
You will find a better a place
In This Twilight.

 

New Years Resolution:

Be good.

12/30/2016 || Who You Are Now

Theme:

Who You Are Now

Quote:

I am forgiven
I am free
I am a field on fire
I am forgiven
I am free
I am a field on fire
I am forgiven
I am free
I am a field on fire
I am forgiven
I am free
I am a field on fire

I can't tell if I am dreaming anymore
I can't tell if I am dreaming anymore
I can't tell if I am dreaming anymore
I can't tell if I am dreaming anymore

~Nine Inch Nails - Burning Bright (Field on Fire) [Not The Actual Events] 

Aren't we all floating in the ocean?
Aren't we all standing in the rain?
Can't you see the world we built together?
Sharing in the sunshine and the pain.

~Aviators - Floating [A Song That Never Ends]

12/29/2016 || Aggressor | Time

Theme:

Aggressor

Time

Quote:

In the air we tried to be
But you shot your arrow through me
Now one of us must die
But the killer won’t survive

In the air we tried to be
But you shot your arrow through me
Now one of us must die
But the killer won’t survive
And the killer won’t survive

~The Dillinger Escape Plan - One Of Us Is The Killer [One Of Us Is The Killer]

12/28/2016 || The Dilemma

Theme:

The Dilemma

Quote:

How could it all be
We've never been dead
But never awake from this dream
How could it all be
We’ve never been dead
Just mirrors running scared
Slicing wrists while we look for our own mortality
All the lights went out cold
Shadow covers the soul
Essence of the world made ceremonial
Now we all wait for the demise

~The Dillinger Escape Plan - Prancer [One Of Us Is The Killer]

12/27/2016 || Yeah Yeah

Theme:

Yeah Yeah

Quote:

Oh, you're 23 years old now
Stick with what you know
The burger joint just down the road seems like the place to go
Oh, it's comfortable and inviting
and it won't tell you lies
I want that Bacon Cheeseburger with those damn good fries

~Ken Ashcorp - Burgz

12/26/2016 || Heavy-headed

Theme:

Heavy-headed

Quote:

What rounding out breaks the silent barrier
Waiting, wait, wait
Can I pick your modest waste?
I expect no more than (did I stutter? did I stutter? did I stutter?)
A simple regret

You deserved it, and you earned it

~Dillinger Escape Plan - Sugar Coated Sour [Calculating Infinity]

12/25/2016 || Give Me Solace

Theme:

Give Me Solace

Quote:

Yeah, I'll gravitate towards you

Or you'll miss me when I'm gone

Cause things are getting creepy
in this sleepy state of Oregon

And I'm gonna set things straight again

I'm gonna prove them wrong

I'm gonna show the world the supernatural

~Ken Ashcorp - Supernatural

12/24/2016 || What We're Afraid Of

Theme:

What We're Afraid Of

Quote:

This is how we fall apart
This is how the ending starts
And when our heads betray our hearts
We fake what we don't know

Cause all we are is everything we've done
All we are is how quickly we run
And all we are
We are

This is how we fall apart
But this is how beginnings start
Cause when our heads betray our hearts
We fake what we don't know

And if our doubt begins again
The answers find us in the end
So in the meantime we'll pretend
And fake what we don't know

~Linkin Park - What We Don't Know [LP Underground X]

12/23/2016 || Catch Up With Me

Theme:

Catch Up With Me

Quote:

And you were there
And I was every question that never had an answer
I see right through you
We never even noticed that
There always was a reason
That we were never meant to be left alone

~The Dillinger Escape Plan - Milk Lizard [Ire Works]

12/22/2016 || Boredom Hour

Theme:

Boredom Hour

12/21/2016 || I'm Doing Alright

Theme:

I'm Doing Alright

Quote:

You're my guiding light
You're my guiding light
When there's no guiding light left inside
When there's no guiding light in our lives

~Muse - Guiding Light [The Resistance]

12/20/2016 || Bittersweet Ending

Theme:

Bittersweet Ending

Quote:

Our trust runs out tonight
Everything we said dissolves
And now we say our last goodbye
Nothing to resolve
I never imagined you'd turn into this
But then the end was always close
We could feel it all along
Don't you know where
We could hide the lies
You were a mouth without a heart
An action without meaning
And you walk afraid
Reaching for the hands that turned closed

~The Dillinger Escape Plan - Mouth of Ghosts [Ire Works]

12/19/2016 || Well?

Theme:

Well?

12/18/2016 || Become

Theme:

Become

Quote:

What if everything around you
Isn't quite as it seems?
What if all the world you think you know
Is an elaborate dream?
And if you look at your reflection
Is it all you want it to be?
What if you could look right through the cracks?
Would you find yourself
Find yourself afraid to see?

~Nine Inch Nails - Right Where It Belongs [With Teeth]

12/17/2016 || A Groove

Theme:

A Groove

Quote:

It's happening soon
It's happening soon
It's scent has been blowing in my direction
To me it is new
To me it is new
And it's not gonna change for anybody

And it's gonna be
Our last memory
And it's led me on
And on to you

~Muse - Fillip [Showbiz]

12/16/2016 || Cookie Cutter

Theme:

Cookie Cutter

Quote:

Baby you're the highlight of my lowlife
Take a shitty day and make it alright
Yeah alright
Oh in every circumstance
Yeah you make the difference
Baby you're the highlight of my lowlife

~That Poppy - Lowlife [Bubblebath]

12/15/2016 || I Don't Want To Be Here

Theme:

I Don't Want To Be Here

Quote:

I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this

don't you tell me how I feel
don't you tell me how I feel
don't you tell me how I feel
you don't know just how I feel

I want to know everything
I want to be everywhere
I want to fuck everyone in the world
I want to do something that matters

~Nine Inch Nails - I Do Not Want This [The Downward Spiral]

12/14/2016 || Bite Me

Theme:

Bite Me

12/13/2016 ||

Theme:

 

Quote:

Are you afraid to die
Travel to the other side
Are you afraid to die
Like me

I am afraid to die
I am afraid to die

~Jared Dines - Afraid to Die [The Dark]

12/12/2016 || Headache

Theme:

Headache

Quote:

I've been dreaming

of us leaving

everything and everyone we've ever known.
I've been thinking

all these visions

must be a sign, so hold on and don't let go.

~Bring Me The Horizon - Visions [There Is A Hell, Believe Me I've Seen It. There Is A Heaven, Let's Keep It A Secret.]

12/11/2016 || Just Tell Me

Theme:

Just Tell Me

Quote:

Hollow paradise
A place of spirits and of ice
The lights have long burned out
But still the echoes give us light
Trapped inside a hall
With my portraits on the wall
The faces stare right back
As I hear the watcher's weary call

~Aviators - The Watcher [From Oceans To Skies]

12/10/2016 || Not Too Bad

Theme:

Not Too Bad

 

12/09/2016 || Slave to Myself

Theme:

Slave to Myself

Quote:

I think I'm losing my mind, I think I'm losing my mind
They say the poison's in the dosage and they must be right
Left with panic attacks and death riding our backs
It all looks so much worse on the way back down

I'm so fucked up since I hit the ground
I'm so fucked up since I hit the ground
 

Revive me!

~Bring Me The Horizon - The Fox and the Wolf [There Is A Hell, Believe Me I've Seen It. There Is A Heaven, Let's Keep It A Secret.]

12/09/2016 || Until

Theme:

Until

Quote:

Behind the light
(So the story goes)
Gone now from making it right
My end I paved
(So the story goes)
Just soft reflections in the waves

~Tarby - The Reflection [Everfree]

12/07/2016 || Worn Out

Theme:

Worn Out

12/06/2016 || Wipe My Memory

Theme:

Wipe My Memory

12/05/2016 || Drifting Away

Theme:

Drifting Away 

Quote:

This machine will, will not communicate
These thoughts and the strain I am under
Be a world child, form a circle
Before we all go under
And fade out again

And fade out again

~Radiohead - Street Spirit (Fade Out) [The Bends]

12/04/2016 || Slowpoke

Theme:

S l o w p o k e

12/03/2016 || You Need An Awakening

Theme:

You Need An Awakening

12/01/2016 || Can I Make It Out This Time?

Theme:

Can I Make It Out This Time?

Quote:

Free, I want to break free
From knowing you
Somewhere in the dark a voice is screaming
One of us is going to leave here bleeding
Breathe I'm trying to breathe
Inside of this
Trap you set to keep me from the daylight
Fighting for my life tonight, 'cause I'm still alive

~Aviators - Alive [A Song That Never Ends]



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